Haven’t been on here in a while, obviously. I gave birth to our baby and he’s beautiful! The labor was super quick and husband was helpful as usual. He’s been kind of antsy since he had arrived and told me he plans to go to an event tonight. He mentioned it days ago and I informed him that I’m not really down for him to go to this event. I don’t trust him out of my sight, especially if I don’t know how long it’s going to take him. I mentioned my concern that one of the elephants would be at the event and he said she doesn’t go to that type of thing. He said he’s only seen her two places and one of them was at Sprouts.

Let’s talk about Sprouts. We shop here fairly often. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before but this event is significant to me. I was about three or for months preggo. I sent him to the store to grocery shop. He was taking longer than usual so I called him. This man answers his phone and said “I’ll call you back.” For what?! I wondered. He needed to bring the food home. He calls me back about 20 or 30 minutes later to tell me he was talking to some woman. He gets home and the groceries are warm/melting. I expressed my irritation and told him it was inappropriate for him to be interacting with women in the way he was. Today I find out that the woman he was talking to was one of the fucking elephants! When he got home he had the AUDACITY to act like I was crazy and overreacting. He tried to say it was ok for him to have female friends. I didn’t know it at the time but he was already cheating on me.

It’s amazing. After he told me this I was somewhat poised but pissed and I kept it to myself. I keep quite a bit to myself. I still wonder why he fell in love with the other woman. He told me I didn’t want to know. Maybe I don’t. I’m trying to enjoy my baby but occasionally I find time to be “in my feelings” and feel hurt about what he’s done. I didn’t know I identified so much with Sam Smith’s song. He tried to make me feel like I was crazy. I told him that he tried to make it seem like I was crazy and he told me that he was the crazy one. He only has about a week left to be here. I love my husband but I don’t trust him. Every time he’s on his phone I wonder if he’s contacting the local elephant to meet up when he goes on an errand. It makes me a tad crazy but we are supposed to move forward.